OMGxzxz, I ALMOST DYING !
Im almost completing my first event , now moving on to my second which is starhub event.
The pay is kinda good !So happy . Time is really $$$, totally agree, undeniable.
Hopefully all my pay comes in time, latest is dec30 i need to do some EOYshopping too .Since ive not been pampering myself recently but just working the shyt out of me.You`ve got no idea hw bz it is,im almost exploding SOON. Its lifeless i swear, up10 in the morn ,off bout`10 & home. Wake up the nxt day it repeats
& i need to remove my gel ext its breaking on by one. ITHURTSBYTCH
Fuck zits srsly, i cant afford it & its mthrfcuking fugly & disgusting whn it erects.. *ew Honestly envy those biatches w flawless skin . One word to describe UNFAIR-
May i thought of something to do whn ive got m pay;
Firstly, imma get my hair done probably at my aunts place ..
Gonna get my hair dyed JET BLACK,as in blu-ish black kind & steam treat.
NEXT..
Get myself a rly nice dress or an outfit ..
lets see perhaps i have a few in mind
For the main time theres only 2 tt caught my eye; way to go
NEXT. lingerie ! My weakness
This is made w full swavroski crystals, boyfriend said its not worth after a few wash its gone.. oh well
& this french bra is muthafcuking hawt!
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juicy couture watch <3 madlove |
another choice would be a...
Tag heuer or chopard ,but one of those chopard could cost literally 5DIGIT. So theres no fcuking way i will have one
NEXT,
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is either this ... |
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OR
along with the earrings & necklace
necklace is similar to the earrings.
For shoes these are it..
more to go...
KTHXBYE!FREAKING TIRED NW.
Labels: Till then..
xoxo,
you know you love me.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
One month & 2 days
Sorry for the super-duper long delay in this post people! Recentl i dont have my cam w/ me so tt explains why my blog is so empty & have been working soooo hard for the upcoming x`mas & my birthday! :D
Right naoxz, im in steve madden & running events. Hopefully theres more events please! Talk about events .. the job is quite fun but if the ppl there are screwed & fcuked up what can you do man.. TSK, lifes a bitch do things for ppl buey swee one..
So ytd was at no.5 emerald.h drank beer not bad i think i kinda improve on my drinking limit. But i dot knw why whn i drink my lower part of my body will swell..
Anyway having looking around & saw stuff that i quite like,but..kachingzxz all flew away ); majorsadcase
& saw a rabeanco bag & seriously fall in love with it ,its like fushia pink dark kind. & its made in full lamb skin; DOPE
Below are the apples of my eye! :b
this vs limited edition bra is the sex i want this!
juicy couture watch <3
<3 hopefull these babies will be mine soon .
,till then.. J
xoxo,
you know you love me.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
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RIGHT NOW IM AT BABY`S HOUSE & I HAVE ALRDY GOTTEN THE FUCK OUT OF THAT HOUSE.ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?..IVE NEVER FELT THAT WAY I WANTED TO,NEVER.WHAT`S THE FCUKING MATTER SERIOUSLY,I DONT UNDERSTAND; I RLY DONT.. LIFE`S ALRDY FCUKED UP & YOU`RE ADDING ON TO IT.'WHY`S' ARE ALL SPAMMING ROUND MY HEAD JUST LIKE NO ONE`S BUISNESS. HEY! AM I STILL SOMEBODY TO YOU? AM I? LIFE`S A BITCH,HW FCUKED UP IT IS,YOU STILL HAVE TO GO ON JOANNE.SOMETIMES I PONDER ..LIFE WITH DAD & MUM HAPPILY LIVING SOMEWHERE FAR AWAY W/O WORRIES/QUARRELS/VULGARITIES SPAMMING ALL AROUND/FIGHTS/SCREAMS/ANGER. WHN WILL I WAKE UP TO A REALITY FULL OF FUGLY FACTS WHICH ONCE I USED TO RUN AWAY FRM TILL NOW.PERHAPS YOU JUST DONT SEE WHAT I SEE. BUT MUM, IF YOU HAPPEN TO CHANCE AND VIEW MY BLOG, I WANNA TELL YOU ,YOU DONT LIVE&RELY W A STRANGER FOREVER YOU LIVE WITH YOUR KIDS ,CAUSE TT WONT MAKE A BROKEN FAMILY WORK.YOU ALRDY LOST SOMEONE DEAR TO YOU & WHY SHOULD YOU WANT TO LOSE YOUR KID,ISNT THIS SICK? ASKING HER TO GET THE FCUK OF THT GOD DAMN PLACE.WHAT DID SHE DO? NOTHING.WHO AM I KIDDING? NO ONE MUM.HONESTLY YOUR WORDS DONT MEAN ANYTHNG ,THEY CHANGE AS & WHN YOU WANT IT TO HAPPEN ,SAME GOES TO PROMISES,THEY BREAK AS & WHEN YOU WANT IT TO.DO YOU EVEN REALISE THAT IM YOUR DAUGHTER?WHAT DID YOU DO WHN SHE WAS UNDER PHYSICAL/VERBAL ABUSE?WHAT?.. STAND THERE AND WATCH DAD BURNING MY CHILDHOOD UP?DO NOTHING BUT SEND ME SOME WHERE FARAWAY NO PARENTS WILL EVER WANT TO DO THAT TO THEIR GOD DEAR CHILD.& AFTER TELL ME SORRY & HOPING I DID FORGIVE YOU OVER & OVER AGAIN ?WHAT AM I?SERIOUSLY?..CANT YOU SEE EVERYTHNG IS ALMOST GONE PRACTICALLY?CAN YOU?DONT TELL ME IM CHEAP, HONESTLY SPEAKING PUT YOURSELF IN MY SHOES,THERES NO LOVE ,CARE,BOND NOTHING AT HOME.NOTHING.. IM SRY I DONT GET IT,IM JUST A NOBODY .THANKS FOR ALL THE YEARS IVE GONE THRU I SWEAR NOTHING IS MAKING MY LIFE BETTER.IT HURTS ,IT FUCKING HURTS !ALL BECAUSE I REMEMBERED HOW A MUM LIKE YOU TREATED ME WHN I WAS YOUNG,I REMEMBERED; FLASHBACKS ARE SO REAL SOMETIMES THY STILL COME AROUND W ME TO MY DREAMS..I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY SOME FRIENDS MUM TREATS ME WAY BETTER THN YOU DO.HOW I WISH.. YOU COMPLAINED I DONT RESPECT YOU,BUT WHY DO I NOT? WHY?BECAUSE THIS IS KARMA OR MAYBE ITS RETRIBUTION MUM.GET THIS RIGHT,WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND. IM SPEECHLESS, IM AWAY.. IM TIRED. SO TIRED SOMETIMES COMING BCK FRM WORKAFTER DOING SOME CHORES ,PERHAPS I DID CRY TO BED SILENTLY.. BUT SOMEHOW I STILL......
LOVE YOU MUM,
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xoxo,
you know you love me.